Look I know I said I would make more of an effort to put in some blogging time. But I'm in my shell at the moment, it's safe and comfortable there. I have so many things I want to say, but, I just don't want to. I like to sometimes keep my things to myself and just stew and mull over them and sort them out in my head.
I feel in a really good space though, I'm coping and I'm not a sobbing teary mess. Last night I went to therapy, it helps right. The therapist thinks I'm in denial. I brought it up though so I started it. I'm slightly disappointed in this as I like to think that I don't run away from issues and that I am brave enough to confront head on and sort it out. I'm over "bury the pain and deal with it later" maybe not...any-the-hoo
Me and Denial will just sit quietly here in my corner where we can keep an eye on each other and everything and everyone and will be in discussions in how we will go about feeling fine without needing him (I feel that Denial is a him - how else?).
My therapist is lovely though and we are on the same wavelength so I am sure we will sort something out. The road to healing and acceptance is sometimes a rocky road but boy do you come out fit and ready to face anything on the other side!
Just want to give you a big hug.
ReplyDeleteThanks Jane xx
ReplyDeleteSometimes we are just not ready to deal with something yet. This doesn't mean that we are in denial. It just means that we are not ready to deal with it as yet. My understanding of denial, is denying that something happened or not acknowledging something. You have acknowledged that something in your life is not as it should be and you are not denying anything. I don't think that you are necessarily in denial. From where I am sitting it appears that you are simply not ready to deal with it just yet. And that's OK. One day you will wake up and decide that today is the day that you will deal with that thing. Just take things one day at a time and all that.
ReplyDeleteps...I had a good laugh at the title of your post. When I read the title I thought of an episode of Greys Anatomy. One of my favourite quotes of all time come from that episode:
"Denial is not a river in Egypt. It's a freaking ocean". - as said by Meredith Grey.
Sigh. You and I are just copy and paste right now.
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