Relationships

OK OK I know I'm harping on about the topic.  It's just that while I was married, I completely closed myself off to making new friends.  Especially guys.  Part of the reason was that I knew I couldn't be the kind of friend that I wanted to be and friendship is pretty much a 2 way street.

I am having so much fun at the moment opening myself up and allowing myself to make new friends.  Having said that, making new friends are pretty much the same as way back when in high school.  Not that the people are childish it's just that it can be hard "breaking in" to an existing group of friends.  It can be a bit daunting and scary - good scary though.

Most of my friends are all married with kids, they are all awesome and I love doing stuff with them.  But for me right now, when the kids are with their father I need to step away from my role as Mom and just be me.  No kid stuff.  It's so important for me right now to take the time I get and be Nicci, the woman, a person in my own right.  Not someone's partner or Mom.  Just me.  Look I love my kids and they are always my priority but at the same time my life can't be all about them all of the time.  To me a happy Mommy = happy kids.  

So I'm having fun being open, getting to know the new people in my life and seeing where it will all take me.  Going with the flow...