Today I'm not on top form. I had a very bad night, was awake a lot had crazy dreams. Then this morning I read this beautiful piece on what Tash Clark thinks love is. And ja being sick I am a little more emotional than usual.
I deserve to be loved like that. And today I miss having someone to hold me, and tell me everything is going to be ok. Someone that will listen to me without judgement just let me purge. Someone who I can be with and that loves me for me, with all my quirks and things and doesn't try to change me.
I know having a special someone in your life isn't the be all and end all. But sometimes I just feel like I've missed out on so much, wasted so much time. I'm in no hurry to find someone, I need to just focus on me for a bit. But a substitute would be nice. I talk to my girlfriends and they are super awesome and supportive and set me straight and soothe and tell me that everything is going to be ok.
But sometimes I just want a strong pair of arms where I feel safe and comforted. Sometimes I just want to surrender and be taken care of and not have to be strong. I am strong and very capable to take care of myself and I surround myself with positive nurturing people. But today I just miss having someone, just today.
Argh just having a moment - it will pass!